Opening Up

What’s the worst thing that can happen if I open up and speak?
Well for one I might become weak.
I know that’s not the answer for not talking,
But right now I just feel like walking.
I just don’t want to deal with it.
I guess I believe if I just leave it alone it’ll all go away bit by bit.
I don’t know what to do anymore.
Sometimes I just want to walk out of the door.
I haven’t been praying like I ought to.
Right now I just don’t know what to do.
You asked what I meant by my faith was slipping away,
Well I don’t know what to say.
It just doesn’t even seem like it is there.
A lot of things are getting hard to bear.
Major decisions are being made for me,
And it’s getting hard to see.
I just want to make my own choice,
To be my own voice.
I don’t know what to do,
But I know when I’m ready I can talk to you.
Sometimes the words won’t come out.
They’re at the tip of my tongue and I want to shout.
One day I’ll speak,
But right now I feel weak.