Untold Secrets

These are the secrets you’ll never know,
Because it is about the pain I never show.
You might have heard about them before,
But we’re headed to a different door.
The pain is locked deep inside,
And now I hardly ever cry.
I try to tell you how I feel,
But the pain is just too real.
I know you are there through thick and thin.
I just don’t know if you can understand where I’ve been.
I’ll give it a shot.
I just need a minute if I get caught.
I haven’t been dealing with stress right,
And everyday it is the urges I fight.
I know all I have to do is pick up the phone and call you.
It’s just that when I’m dealing with the pain I don’t know what to do.
There are so many things that are occurring,
Hardly anything seems reassuring.
I try to handle the problems by myself,
And I put my bible on the shelf.
I fall deeper into a hole,
And it is so cold.
I get caught up in the time,
And I don’t realize how I’m not fine.
I can tell you a hundred stories,
But after a while it will get boring.
The pain is etched on my arms and legs,
And you might not realize everything’s not okay.
I give you a fake little smile,
And that works for a while.
I know I am better then this,
But what step did I miss?
You might tell me that I’m not alone.
That just hits me like a stone.
I know that people are there,
And they really care.
Sometimes I just don’t know how to talk,
So instead I walk.
The walking doesn’t help.
I open my mouth but I can’t shout.
I just need someone to hold my hand.
I need someone to tell me that I can.