My Thoughts

How can you tell me everything will be fine,
When it feels as if I’m running out of time?
I see a smile on your face,
But I always feel your disgrace.
I will go on with your act.
But when I leave don’t ask me back.
You were never there.
How can I even pretend that you cared?
You left me to die.
And you didn’t even see the tears I cried.
You think I’m just a doll,
One you can pick up if it falls.
I’ll get up on my own.
I don’t need help from someone so cold.
You never even got to know the real me.
You became to blind to see.
You think you know who I am.
But you don’t know where I’ve been.
My mask holds back almost every thought.
And right now my mind is caught.
I’m in the middle of your lies,
Wishing sometimes I could just die.
You promised to be a dad,
But your promise has made me so mad.
You broke that bond,
Not knowing how I was growing fond.
You said you would come to my game.
I just guessed you thought soccer was lame.
You only showed when I didn’t call,
And you were part of my downfall.
You showed up in my life and just left,
Just like when I was little as I slept.
You don’t know what you’ve done to me,
You won’t be able to see who I can be.
So when I leave don’t ask me back,
I need to get my life back on track.