Healing

Once again I lift this up to you.
Once again I don't know what to do.
How can I keep pressing on
When I don't feel strong?
My mind often drifts away,
And I find myself in a daze.
It's hard to find my way home.
I know I'm not, but I feel alone.
Not knowing my place,
I feel like a disgrace.
In order to deal,
I first have to heal.
You're going to be there holding my hand
This healing is a part of your plan. I'm scared of what they will say.
I don't feel like I'll be okay.
Why can't you miracuously heal me?
Why does this have to be?
I've finally realized this happened for a reason,
But why am I going through it this season?
I know it has changed my life
However, reliving it brings forth more strife.
Why can't I just forget?
Why must I regret?
Your reasons are far beyond my grasp,
And it's time for me to stop living behind a mask.
Give me the courage I need.
Help me to finally be free.