Walls (Joshua 6)

Bricks, stones, cement and clay
These and more keep You away.
I don't want You in
Let me soak up my sin.
Nor do I want to leave
So just let me be.
I'm content with my way of living
I'm not bothered by all my sinning.

You see I've been hurt many times before,
So I decided to just close all doors.
I've been left beaten and bruised.
So why would I choose You?
My fear is you will do the same they did to me
And I can't possibly let that be.

Love me from a distance but don't get to close.
I have problems I don't want You to diagnose.
I am told your yoke is easy and your burden is light,
But I can't help but put up a fight.
It's often said You're waiting for me to come to you;
Right now I don't know what to do.

I've protected myself for so many years.
I've pushed back all my fears and many of tears.
Please don't break this wall: it's all I know
Please don't break this wall: it's all I have to show.
I've finally surrendered to Your will.
Now all the demons inside of me are killed.