Hiding from You

I'm hiding from you and don't know why,
I'm doing things that make you cry.
I've lost the sense of your presence,
And my life is now dense.
I shouldn't have left your side.
Now all I want to do is hide.
You know where I am all the time,
Even when I'm committing a crime.
I should call out to you during all times of the day.
For some reason I don't know if that's okay.
I come to you about my troubles,
And sometimes they just double.
I know that you will helop me through them all,
But sometimes I refuse to call.
I don't want to burden you with my pain,
So I just keep it in my heart and it begins to stain.
The pain slowly seeps through,
And that's when i don't know what to do.
I turn my back so you won't see me suffering.
I know now that makes your heart sting.
You called me home so many times.
You held out your hands and said everything will turn out fine.
I don't know if I can understand that right now,
Because I'm lost in a crowd.
I'm lost in the world and can't find a way out.
I find I don't cling onto you and shout.
I hold on to my own strength and it doesn't get me anywhere,
And sometimes I no longer care.
I don't want you to know where I am,
because I am caught up in sin.
I can't make it anymore,
I have to open another door.
All of the doors are locked,
And I'm being mocked.
You're the only way out,
It's now when I shout.
Why do I wait until I'm so far down?
Why do I wait until I'm bound?
I know you're the only way,
And by your side I want to stay
The world pulls me down,
And when I realize that I don't make a sound.
I figure I could do it without you
But without you I don't know what to do.
I have to keep looking to the sky,
Because you're the one who'll help me fly.